中年近，人自然容易想當年。我未算中年人，但歲月流走，感覺亦相近。
近日重聽Beatles的In My Life，體會與以前大有分别。年少時，一直以為生命中的人和事會長久下去，永不止息。事實當然並非如此。
有朋友已身故多年。少年時期所住的地方已不復存在。家人老去，朋友嫁的嫁、娶的娶，分開的亦已分開。舊愛亦肯定地成為歷史，感情不再。下一代誕生、長大，完全沒有興趣變成長輩的我亦無可避免地走馬上任（雖然我仍自稱「哥哥」，而非「叔叔」）。自己亦不自覺地成為小肥佬一件。回首前塵，從來沒有想過自己所選擇的路是如此的曲折，而現在所做的會是如此的有趣。
現在聽In My Life的我，雖然仍是我，但已不是最初的我。要悔恨的可以很多，可以放開的更多。現在還算可以吧。唯一可惜的，是還未有一個可以讓我感到 “In my life, I love you more” 的人。
In My Life
Composed by John Lennon and Paul McCartney
Lyrics by John Lennon
There are places I remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I’ve loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
Though I know I’ll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I’ll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more
This post was written by Felix on July 10, 2010
